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So, my strategy for dealing

Av savedeter lotevesa - 9 januari 2011 03:41

So, my strategy for dealing with this revelation about MM did not go well. And why would it. I wasn't upset about the anniversary thing. I was upset that he slept with somebody else (even if it was early days) and went to Europe with her (I have yet to do that with him and it's been 2 years). Eventually on Sunday night we had another talk. Again, it wasn't going so well, and MM came out and asked where this was coming from. I thought my heart was going to pound it's self right out of my chest. But, in the end I came clean. I told him that I had done homework on his computer while he was out and that afterward I was looking at his pictures. He didn't get mad like I thought he would. And he was incredibly sweet about the whole thing. At one point he even offered to leave. Which wasn't at all what I wanted. I felt immensely better after coming clean. I don't know if he did or not, but I know that I can celebrate our anniversary coming up without feeling sad or upset. I went so far as to read some of my blog from the early days of our dating. I think I need to do this more often when I'm feeling down about us. I had something good. I enjoyed our dating for the first few months. It isn't until I start thinking our relationship should be something else that I get depressed. And usually it isn't even from a deep sense of needing or wanting something else. It's just an external "should" that I feel the need to meet. Anyway... we're back to being good again. I'm hoping we keep it good for a while now.

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I've been sitting on this post

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Av savedeter lotevesa - 9 januari 2011 03:44

I've been sitting on this post for awhile now because it's really hard for me to write. I don't know why. It isn't anything new or surprising, it's just that it has finally started to bother me on a fundamental level.I went on a family vacation in...

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Av savedeter lotevesa - 9 januari 2011 03:43

I feel like a jenga game. My foundation is being taken away from me piece by piece and it's a matter of time before it all comes crashing down. I tried to talk to MM last night but he was drunk and I don't think he remembers it now. I'm trying t...

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Av savedeter lotevesa - 9 januari 2011 03:39

I can't remember when India officially went on my list of places I want to visit. In high school I was obsessed with the Beatles and especially George Harrison. There is no doubt that India effected them. Then in graduate school I started reading the...

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Av savedeter lotevesa - 9 januari 2011 03:37

I'm teaching at a school in the west end called Emery Collegiate, it's about as different from SATEC as chalk and cheese. I do miss the halls at SATEC, and I've discovered something - I came back to SATEC a little while ago, before I started here,...

Heya folks

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Av savedeter lotevesa - 9 januari 2011 03:36

Heya folks, once again it's time for Mr. K's exam tips roundup: 1) Get lots of sleep. Exams suck, don't let them get to you. 2) Exercise. Especially my students in uni - You don't want the Freshie 15 any more than you want to catch a bad rash from ...

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